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Monday, July 29th, 2002

Time:4:20 am.
whoo. Renn is gonna fix this LJ up for me! So I'ma start updating more. I LOVE YOU REN!! YOU RAWK. <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 You are such a sweet girl. >3
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Monday, July 1st, 2002

Subject:Gah damn Helen.
Time:12:06 am.
Mood:Pissed.
Music:The*Ataris - Your boyfriend sucks.
Stupid fucking Helen. >
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Saturday, June 29th, 2002

Subject:Best emo bands EVER
Time:8:35 pm.
Mood: hyper.
Music:Taproot - I.
This is a list of my favorite emo bands.

Acrobat Down, Alkaline Trio, At The Drive-In, Blonde Redhead, Blue Skies Burning, Boy's Life, Boy Sets Fire, Braid, Breaking Pangaea, Burning Airlines, Cadence, Catch 22, Cap'n Jazz, Compound Red, Christie Front Drive, Cursive, Dashboard Confessional, Days in December, Drive Like Jehu, Ethel Meserve, Falling Forward, Further Seems Forever, Garden Variety, Giant's Chair, Glasseater, Green Day, Hot Water Music, Hum, Jawbox, Jets to Brazil, Jimmy Eat World , Joan of Arc, Journey, Juliana Theory, June of 44 , Mariner Nine, Mid Carson July, Midtown, Mineral, Modest Mouse, New Found Glory, Piebald, Planes Mistaken For Stars, Pop Unknown, Prozac Memory, Rainer Maria, River City High, Roadside Monument, Rye Coalition, Saves The Day, Seam, Sense Field, Seven Storey Mountain, Silver Scooter.

Anyways, Emo is the best genre of music. <3! But hmm, bored!
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Subject:new layout. :x
Time:6:39 pm.
Mood: excited.
Music: x/ none.
I'm about to do a NEW layout. OMG. :D
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Subject:Lol
Time:5:37 pm.
Mood: bored.
Music:Dashboard Confessional - Again I Go Unnoticed.
Lol I'm thinking of making a friends only LJ, if
someone can get me a LJ code. <3





Are you NASTY or NICE?

Quiz made by Angela

Anyways, hmm. I'm bored. I'm thinking
of making my next LJ a punk LJ. With
like Saves the day pics. Or something
punky. <33! Probaqbly Thursday or
Fenix TX though

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Subject:Sooooooo tired. x.x!
Time:11:08 am.
Mood: hungry.
Music:dj sammy - Heaven.
Erm. I'm SO tired, I just woke up. I cleaned my other room yesterday which will be the game room. Poof. Hmm My mom went to the funeral yesterday. I refused to go, so she took the keyboards all day till I cleaned up. Lol. Sucks huh? They tend to do that alot.; But I still came on and used Character map cause I HAD to talk to Jayson.

I went up to the store with my ten dollars and got a 3 hour calling card so I could call Jayson for a while. I did stuff. -Cough.- Lol, anyways. [ Insert Parental advisory sticker here ] Lmao. Ok then. But yea, we talked for about 2 hours and 30 minutes in the afternoon and then I called him again around 10, with about 35 minutes left on it. I'm planning on going shopping today so I can get some more, cause I cleaned up both rooms so I should have allowence.

Listening to DJ Sammy again. I'm in love with this song. But anyways. I took a bunch more pics for Jayson. Oh and the digital camera I got has awesome color. All I need to do is setup the disk. I took a REALLY good picture of me ontop of the desk with my legs pulled to me. I think he'll like that. <3

Hrm, well then AOL decides to be gay again. Dammit to hell. Anyways, I'ma bit hungry. I just woke up, that could be why. Lol. I'm off now. <33333 Ahhhhh headache. OH I found out that Jayson and I like the same kind of candy and same kind of chips. Lol, were seriously meant to be aren't we babe? :D Leave comments everyone. . please. <33
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Thursday, June 27th, 2002

Subject:Well then.
Time:5:41 pm.
Mood: happy.
Music:Thursday - Dying in New Brunswick.
Whheee

My life

is

great

now

Jayson and I are happy now. :D Were
all worked out and things seem to be
going smooth. I love him so much.
He's my babeh. :B I'll love no one else

Well then all you people out there
reading this. I'm fine now so no worries
. :B I'm still Video chatting with David. I
just think it's fun. :x But hmm this wont
be a really long entry. <3

I have to go the funeral tomorrow. And I
have to go to dinner with MY MOM tonight.
Oh joy. -.-! Oh well I'll live. My dad and
brother went to Sarasota for a meeting
. Lol. byez! <33
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Subject:All about Courtney. :D
Time:1:01 pm.
Mood: bored.
Music:Thursday - I am the Killer.
-- BASICS
Name: Courtney
Sex: Woman. xD Girl. oO
Age: 14 in July. 13 now. ;-;!
Birthday: July 18th.
Place of Birth: Florida. :x
Siblings: Tryo: 24
Parents: Walt and Jeanie
Pets: 3 shelties: Holly, Heidi, Magic. :x
Height: 5'4
Hair Color: Blonde
Hair Color of Choice: Black
Eye Color: Blue
Eye Color of Choice: brown or green.
Writing Hand: right!
Current Residence: Florida. Clearwater

-- BODY ILLS AND SKILLS
Nervous Habits: biting muh nails, and muh lip.
Do you bite your nails? Alot when I'm bored.
Do you pick your nose? nope
Are you double jointed? !!!!! no
Can you roll your tongue? Maybe. XF
Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? Yea hehe!
Can you blow smoke rings? I don't smoke ;]
Can you blow spit bubbles? ...Yesh.
Can you flare your nostrils? xD Of course. :x
Can you cross your eyes? Yesh.
Tattoos? Nope. I want a chinese symbol on my shoulder
Piercings and where? ...I want my tongue peirced
Do you make your bed daily? Mhm. :D

-- CLOTHES
What goes on first, bra or underwear? Underwear. ;x
Which shoe goes on first? Left fer me. :x
Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? Yes.
how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet? $15
What jewelry do you wear 24/7? . . my bracelets.
What's sexiest on a guy: x.x Anything JAYSON wears. >D
Would you rather be on time and look OK or 10 minutes late and look great? 10 minutes late. :D
Favorite Piece of Clothing: Hmm My 'Independent' shirt.
Pajamas: a shirt and pajama bottoms.

-- FOOD
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl it :x
Have you ever eaten Spam? yes.
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Chocolate Malt.
How many cereals in your cabinet? 1. Awha. Honey Nut Ceerios.
What's your favorite beverage? Dr Pepper and Root beer. :x
What's your favorite restaurant? Antonios.
What utensils do you use to eat pizza? NO. XD
Do you cook? Yep. :o

-- GROOMING
How often do you brush your teeth? three times a day
How often do you shower/bathe? 2 times a day
How long does your shower last? 10-15 min. <3
Hair drying method: Wrap your hair in a towel and let it dry.
Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? Yea.
If that fountain of youth existed, would you drink from it? Yea. :x
Do you paint your nails? Mhm. BLACK. :X
Would you rather have genital herpes or be 50 lbs. over weight? overweight

-- MANNERS
Do you swear? Fuck yea. :x Damn that shit's wack. xD
Do you ever spit? Only when I have a bad taste in my mouth.

-- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE;
Actor/Actress: SHANE WEST!!!
Animal: Wolf or Tiger. :x
Food: RAMEN NOODLE SOUP. x_x!
Month: November.
Day: Thursday and Sunday.
Cartoon: SPONGEBOB. :B and Invader Zim.<33
Flower: Tulips. :x
Shoe Brand: DC's or Etnies.
Subject in school: . . .oO Uhh Math.
Color: Black.
Person to talk to: Jayson, David.
Sport: Football. :x
Body part on you: Legs?
Body part on the opposite sex: Oooh. Lips. :x
TV show: Friends.
Movie: A Walk To Remember!!<33
Holiday: Easter.
Book: The Client, by John Grisham. <33 Law books rool!
Vacationing Spot: I wanna go to Arizona. x.x
Thing to do in Spring: Be myself. XD
Thing To Do In The Summer: Swim, sleep.
Thing To Do In The Fall: Jump in leaves.
Thing To Do In The Winter: play in the snow!
Perfume or Cologne: Uh, Fetish.
TV Station: MTV, Cartoon Network.
Model (Male or Female): Uhh. Dont know. xF
Game: DDR!!!!!!!!


-- IN AND AROUND
The CD Player: Metallica.
Person you talk most on the phone with: Jayson. :x <33
Ever taken a cab? No
Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? Yep.
What color is your bedroom? Black. . and white.
Do you use an alarm clock? No. Dont work.
Name one thing you are obsessed with: Punk, emo.
Have you ever skinny-dipped with the opposite sex? Pfft, yea.
Ever sunbathed nude? e.e; Hell no.
Window seat or aisle?: Window seat.

-- LA LA LAND
What's your sleeping position? On my side or on my stomach.
What kind of bed do you like? WATERBED.
Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? Yep. I stick my feet out.
Do you snore? No. xD
Do you sleepwalk? YES XD
Do you talk in your sleep? Yea, alot.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animals? No. xF
How about with the light on? No.
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? Most of the time.

-- GIRL QUESTIONS
What is the nicest thing a guy could do for you? Be there for me whenever I need them. Like Jayson does. :D Or Cuddle with me for hours. <33333
What do you look for in a guy? Good sense of humor, good looking, smart, nice, sweet, has to be willing to cuddle with me. :s
What is the first thing you notice when you look at a guy? Lips and eyes.
What do you think of cheating? It sucks. It isn't right.
Makeup. Should we have to wear it or not? Depends. I wear eyeliner and black eyeshadow half the time.
Tell the truth: Did you ever wish you could look like Barbie? Barbie is fucking ugly.

-- WHICH IS BETTER;
Coke or Pepsi? coke
Oranges or apples? Apples
One pillow or two? Two
Deaf or blind? Uhh, neither. If I had to choose, Deaf.
Pools or hot tubs? Hot tubs with Jayson. :x
Blondes or brunettes? Brunettes.
Tall or short? Tall. x.x
TV or radio? Radio.
Beach or pool? Pool. <3
Tic-Tacs or Certs? Certs.
Snooze button or jump out of bed? Jump out of bed.
Sunrise or Sunset? Sunrise.
Hamburger or Cheeseburger? Cheeseburger.
Morning or night? Night.
Sports or news? Sports. <33
Bikini or one-piece? Bikini.
Indoors or outdoors? Outdoors.
Christmas Eve or Christmas Day? Both.
Cake or ice cream? Cake. Nummy. :P
Bert or Ernie? oO!!! Bert.
Spicy or Mild? Spicy.
Spearmint or Peppermint? Spearmint. <3
Call or Write? Call.
Peanut Butter or Jelly? Jelly. :o
Hamburger or Hot Dog? Hot dogs.
Dog or Cat? Dog. ;]
Bath or shower? Both.
Book or Movie? Movie.
Green or Red apples? Green.
Rain or Snow? Snow!!
Nike or Adidas? Neither.

-- WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU;
Took a shower? THis morning.
Watched Bambi: xD Last week. <3
Cried? When Jayson and I were arguing last.
Talked on the phone? Today. xD
Read a book? Like 5 months ago. x.x
Punched someone? 2 days ago.

-- THE FUTURE
Where do you see yourself in ten years? Married to jayson. :x
Who are you going to be married to? JAYSON. <33
How many kids? 1 or 2.
Your profession: Lawyer. <3
Future School: Uhh Law school. :x
Car of Your Dreams: Datsun 2 80z. :/
I wanna live: With Jayson.

Hmm well there ya go. Now ya know more about me.
But anyways, my ear hurts so bad. It's either infected
or something is stuck in it. I don't know but the slight
est little poke of it, makes it ache and ache and it hur
ts for HOURS. I've tried using a Q-Tip to clean it, of c
ourse my ear is always clean. oO Cause I use Q-Tips
everyday to reduce infection, but it hurts too much to
even try to. I can't hear out of it either. Omg it huuuuu
rts. x.x
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Subject:INTERESTING.
Time:1:04 am.
Mood: bouncy.
Music:DJ Sammy - Heaven..
I LOVE TO TYPE IN CAPS OOOOOOH YES MMMMMMM OH FUCK ME GOOD. YEA YEA YEA OOOOOHHHHHHH YEEEEEEEA. -DROOL.- Mooey. :x

Well then. Melissa is sending me her stupid pics. With her stupid webcam. XD She says I'm sexy. omg. Why does everyone say I am? e.e; I think I'm NOT. Well hmm Friday I have to go to a funeral.

TOMORROW.. Or I mean today, I am home alone. >D Bwuaha. Jayson I hope you can call. XD I have something for you. :B If you know what I mean?

Well then. -Cough, clear throat.- I can't wait till I meet David again. x.x I NEED to get way better at DDR. Plus. . I've really been looking foward to seeing him again. Fact being I'm thinking about him more. I don't know why but I am. Jayson, I think about you the most though baby. ^_~. <33

Hmm let's hope my mom doesn't make me get off anytime soon.

Bah, I was playing DDR earlier with the controller instead of the pad. I CANT get the beats and moves down with that crappy pad. It sucks. I need to give it back to Kat though. The game AND mat are hers. Lmfao. She's going to kill me. I said I'd have it for only a week. Hehe. It's been a month. I'm surprised she hasn't driven down here and gotten it. I bet she'll never let me use it again.

Well it's been the 2nd day I haven't talked to Helen, but she's been on. It's upseting me alot. Because she was an awesome friend until she bitched out on me. I don't understand what the hell her problem is. Here now is my favorite line from my FAVORITE song..

Baby you're all that I want, when you're lying here in my arms. Baby it's hard to believe; were in heaven. :D

I luff that song. DL all of you. NOW "Heaven" by DJ Sammy. I love techno. -Melts.- All the songs I've heard that are techno kinda of explain most of the feelings I have. My emotions, It makes me feel I dunno, I'm not sure how to explain it. It just always makes me happy and makes me feel secluded from the world? Hehe. Hard to explain. But I love it. OH I know how to explain it. It makes me feel free in a way. Like I can do what I want, be who I want to. Things like that. Makes me feel better about myself. Cheers me up. Something to listen to when I'm bored. :D Eminem is a whore "Nobody listens to techno" X.x Damn FAGGOT. I hate him. He's like evil. PUNK, ROCK, HEAVY METAL, TECHNO, AND EMO ARE GENRES WHCIH RULE THE FUCKING WORLD. ALWAYS. AHAHAHAHAHA. HERE COME CAPS AGAIN. :X

Lol, this is a long entry

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Ok this is out of bordem. I'm sorry people. Lmfao. I'ma go now. JAYSON GET THE FUCK ONLINE. XD COME HOME FROM JENNY['S PLEASE. :X
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Wednesday, June 26th, 2002

Subject:Bad night. ;-;
Time:10:23 am.
Mood: nervous.
Music:Avril Lavigne - Things I'll Never Say.
Last night, was pretty damn rough for Jayson and I, but eveything's fine now. We just got into a huge argument. Misunderstandings so on. But everything seems fine now. I am gonna try not to say anything wrong anymore Lol. Man both our lives suck ass; right now at least. Bah I doubt anything else will happen. I'm preventing it. Hmm not much to post about. Lala. Bored. Blah. Avril's music is so good; as of which I'm listening to right now. But I have the munchies so FOOD. But last night made me actually realize how miserable Jayson actually was. I knew he was but not to a certain extent. I kept thinking about him ALL night when I had to go to bed. Thinking of how much I love him, and so on. Well that's patched up now. :D <3333333
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Monday, June 24th, 2002

Subject:a nice little quiz
Time:9:52 pm.
Mood:Horny.
Music:New Found Glory - Tell-Tale Heart.
What kind of sexual personality do I have? *cough* Jayson. . .e.e;



Whats Your Sexual Personality?
this quiz was made by Val


Interesting huh? :B LOL Jayson one of the questions was "Where would you perfer to have sex?" and I put "Pushed up against a wall" Omg, just the thought of that turns me on. XF Especially with you. <333333!

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Subject:o m f g ;-;
Time:6:43 pm.
Mood:suicidal...
Music:Nothing. -.-.
Omg. I am so suicidal now. My best friend EVER that I missed for so long whom I love like a sister pretty much ( Helen ) hates me now. Because I accidentally said Pete lived in CA. I meant to say NC. But she also says I was being a bad friend. But you know what. I am, seems as how everyone I meet irl starts to hate me after a few months to a year. But fuck life. I'm tired of it. I think I'm going to go sit out in the rain and cry my ass off. Maybe Helen, you should not be so PRE OCCUPIED with thinking about all these guys like you do. See I do alot for you. I let you stay with me. I was nice to you most of the time. And my dad even took you and BOUGHT you stuff. But I guess you don't care anymore. I guess you never want to see me anymore. I hope you have a happy fucking life.
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Saturday, June 22nd, 2002

Subject:Bored and stupid xF
Time:10:38 pm.
Mood: blank.
Music:Not much o_O.
Haha. Helen and I are dumb. She told me to put some shampoo in the hot tub today. . and I did. Lol, uh huh. . a monsoon of bubbles. They were literally up 2 foot. It was so funny until my dad screamed at us. Lol, he was pissed and said "I wish I never let Helen stay over here" I was like "W . . t . . f" Anyways. Heh he's pretty cool with it now. He just had to drain the hot tub and let the water delude. Well I'm bored.

Today was pretty fun though. I went to the mall with Helen and my dad. Ellington mall has like Quicksilver and Pac Sun and all these cool stores. I got like 5 or 6 new shirts. A pair of roxy shoes and a new bikini. My dad spent at least 140 or 150 dollars on me. And he bought Helen some stuff too; she has to pay him back though. I owe him like 15 dollars for a calling card he got me and some bracelets. Well yea. o_o I've been getting bitchy the past 2 days. xD Yelling at Helen and Laura and my dad. But I've kind of stopped now. I thought helen was going to leave the other day when I was being a stupid whore. Lmfao.

Brandon and Joe are being poopy heads again. No comment on that little um statement. But last night Jayson and I got in a BAD ass argument. Omg, so many things. Like I told him our relationship was falling apart. It wasn't working out too well and he took it the wrong way and thought I was breaking up with him. Then I started bitching and we just got in a fight. So we stopped eventually but yea. I'm waiting for him to come back on now. Helen and I are gonna go watch some movies in a little while too. :D

I told Jayson I was drunk last night. xD But the whole argument started with that when I got back online and talked to him about it. Obviously his friends had some problems with alcohol and he's really uncomfortable when people drink. So yea that caused a problem. I'ma go now. <3333
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Friday, June 21st, 2002

Subject:People suck. ;/
Time:10:13 am.
Mood: pissed off.
Music:Spongebob wavs. xD.
Here's a little cute something! <3


We gotta find another pawprint
thats the 1st clue

We put it in our
Cuz it's Blues Clues Blues Clues

Then we sit down in our
and
Think..
Think..
Thiiiiiink

Cause when we use our minds
To take once step outta time then
we can do..anything..



..That we wanna do ;]

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Im a singin kangaroo and I come from far away
I like to hop hop hop all day
Would you like..to come and plaaaay
We'll hop hop hop hop whatta ya say?!



I go hop hop cuz I'm a kangaroo
So get in mah pouch and I'll hop with you
I go hop hop while I sing my song
Hop hop hop hop hoppin along!



I got big feet that I use like a spring
That's why hop hop hoppins MY thing
I like to hop and I like to sing
Hop hop hop hop ring-a-ding-DING

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Lmfao wasn't that interesting? :B

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Wednesday, June 19th, 2002

Subject:Mmm. :D
Time:5:13 am.
Mood: horny.
Music: RPing with Jayson..
As this will be a much more positive entry from the last. I am taking it much better and thinking of it as, he's just on vacation and he's coming back soon. xD Hey it works. Well Jayson and I had fun on the phone tonight. He called me for about an hour and 30 minutes. The last 30 minutes I did a little something something for him. And he helped out of course, but next time I told him I just want him to listen. And he said "I stopped to listen a couple of times I was like 'DAMN'" Lol, were RPing now. Hehe. I got out of the hot tub a few minutes ago. I WAS ONLY RELAXING. Ehe. -Nudge nudge.- Isn't that right Jayson? Lol, EVERYONE who reads this
Please
Freaking
Comment?
Thanks.
Now to continue on. . I went to Tallahassee for 2 days and there was no computer there so I couldn't update LJ or talk to Jayson. ;-; So I called him for like 1 min when I got there. Cause the last time I used up like maybe 2 hours. Lol, they were worth it talking to him and doing OTHER stuff Lol. Well, I don't know how much they pay for long distance but I'll pay em back. Well anyways, I went there to go to a funeral. My great grandma died June 15th. So, yea. It was pretty boring but I figured it is proper to go. Omg, I am so in love with Jayson. SO BADLY. I want to see him. I am CRAVING him. Of course I am horny right now. :B I'm talking to him. Hehe. Well, hmm I may have to wait a year to see him..but I'm sure days will pass quickly. They already are. But hey you never know he could be tricking me. e.e; And show up at my house on my B-day. OMG I'D LOVE THAT. ASKJALS :D Well heh. Laura took care of the dogs while we were gone too. Heh. OH Helen is back in town. She's staying with her mom though now. But she's gonnna stay with me for maybe a week pretty soon. :B So fun. Lol. I miss her alot. I just wish it was JAYSON IN TOWN. Omg. x.x; Well I can learn to wait. At least I will see him. :D Just not as soon as I'd hope for, but it's better than never. -Cling.-
DONT
FORGET
COMMENTS.
:D ALL OF YOU. <333
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Monday, June 17th, 2002

Subject:Hmph..
Time:1:44 pm.
Mood:suicidal ._..
Music:Metallica - Nothing Else Matters.
Remember that nice little entry about Jayson coming to see me? And me being so fucking happy? Hmm, well looks like things FUCKING changed. Last night with my little episode, crying SO hard cause I can't wait for at least 2 weeks to see him. Hm, makes it worse that I have to wait a fucking year now. I fucking hate it. He's going to see his dad in NY for a month. But he'll still be calling me and stuff. But thats not the point. I TRUELY thought he was coming to see me. And I got my hopes up too high. I was actually like DREAMING of how EVERYTHING would happen when he did come and now it's fucked. I guess I can just dream more. Besides they're only GOING to be dreams. -.- Comments please people. But a few more things. Jayson, I just wanna say. . .I'm not mad at you. So don't think that. I'm just pissed. So, I love you and yea.

My life fucking blows ass, and there is nothing I can do about it right now. Everytime Jayson and I are on the phone he's always talking about that little empty space in his bed right next to him and how he wishes I was there next to him. Yea well, think of all you fucking people who CAN be with the person you love and like go lay down next to them for hours. Yea, that would be really nice if I could do that. ._. I hate my life so much. I want so badly to be with him and I cant But hey, it'll happen in a few years. Heh, I was kind of hoping soon. -.- I'm just gonna nvm. I'm going now, I'll stop blabbing on about something that isn't that fucking important. Comments please. Oh and ONE last thing. xD All you people that I told that he'll be coming soon. . .um don't feel too bad. It'll be fine I think. o_o No actually it won't but still. Just don't worry about me. -.- Hmm Life sucks doesn't it? Oh well, just don't be happy for me anymore
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Subject:I need him. .
Time:3:14 am.
Mood: depressed.
Music:Metallica - Nothing Else matters..
'm pretty much breaking down right now. I know I was all excited about J-
ayson coming, but hey he might not come for another month. But, I'm crying
my ass off. I feel so empty without him. I deal with it most times. But it's VE
RY hard to realize that I can't go see him whenever I want to. I wish I could
, but I can't. My tears are just like pouring down my cheeks and I'm trying n-
ot to fucking scream.

I have to go to Tallahassee tomorrow at 3 pm. So, he's goin to call me when
he gets up. I'm feeling like my ENTIRE life is fallin apart, day after day. Just g
etting worse. Hmm, it's starting to make me think badly about myself and wa'
nt to cut myself again which I'm not going to do. I think it's stupid, it's just I ca
n't control my thoughts sometimes. I want to fucking die at some points, but k
nowin I'll never see him if I do that. Jayson is my life, world, EVERYTHING. If
I lose him I swear to god I'll die. No fucking doubt about that. I love him with al
l my heart and would kill myself if ANYTHING happened between us or to him
. I know he feels the same. I just really do pray that he can see me within a f
ew weeks. Or I swear I will just go mad. Lol. He's sleeping right now. I can't
sleep. I'm too worked up about this right now. I feel like shit.

I'm gonna go. Love ya Jayson. David, I'm glad things are working out between
you and Jana now. :/
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Subject:God fucking dammit
Time:1:19 am.
Mood: aggravated.
Music:Bang! - Shooting Star (Euro Mix).
Wow. That was fucking interesting. A nice little 15 min long argument bet
ween Jayson and I. Lol, nothing serious though. <3! Bah it gets annoying
sometimes. But like we've stopped for now. xD Hmm. I'm bored. I wanna'
see him so fucking bad. God fucking dammit. Hmm I'm bored. I think I'm go
ing to cry. :D Because this song makes me cry. I need him with me. ajhsl;
sdj bye. COMMENTS PLEASE. <333
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Sunday, June 16th, 2002

Subject:._.
Time:2:41 pm.
Mood: confused.
Music:DDR - Tell Me Tell Me.
Hmm, it seems like Jayson and I are arguing a lot more. I don't know if it's
cause we talk to each other ALL the time or what. Hmm, I hope it doesnt
lead to any annoyance from one of us. I hope we'll stop too. XD Cause it
's bugging me. But hey, if anything was to happen it would patch up quic
kly. Were pretty much inseperable. <3! I think it'll be fine. I just need to sto
p getting argumentive towards him. Oh well. <3 Comments please. :D
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Subject:Hmm
Time:12:32 pm.
Mood: guilty.
Music:DDR - Whistle Song.
Aw, omg. David is down right now. ._. Hmm I feel bad. Jana is like breaking his heart. I feel like shit. -.- Yea, he seems really. Blah. I'm sorry David if you're reading this. I really am. I hope you cheer up soon! I hate seeing you down like this. Hmm. I hope you two work things out if you can. I hope there is something I can do to help too. Cause I really don't like seeing you hurt. Hmm, sounds a bit familiar, but hey. Just I don't know. I love you like a friend dood. I'm just trying to help out. :/! But, anyways. Hmm. Comments people please! :D <3 Here's a quiz I toooooook.
Take the 'Which Archangel are you?' Quiz!

Which Archangel are
you? by Xera


Anyways. :o I'm going to Tallahassee Monday afternoon for the funeral and coming back around late Tuesday night. Hmm, I hope Jayson gets on soon or I'm just gonna be bored all day!! ._. He's supposed to call me today. :D Omg, I can't wait!!!!! till I get to see him. Ehe. I'll be so happy. DAVID CHEER UPPPPP . :/ I love you Jayson! <333 Always. COMMENTS. sjldhasd :D <33333

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